At first glance, the table of contents of My Story of V and then A–Z may seem simple—an alphabetical list of chapters. But a closer look reveals something far more profound. Each letter serves as a lens into the complexity of living with vaginismus, capturing the emotional, physical, and relational layers of the experience. This A–Z framework not only organizes the narrative but also mirrors the nonlinear, multifaceted nature of healing.

Below is a closer look at how each chapter unfolds within this A–Z journey:

Table of Contents

V: Vaginismus 1

A: Afraid 3

B: Breathing and Balloons 6

C: Communication 8

D: Disgust 11

E: Enough 13

F: False Research 15

G: Gynecological Exams 17

H: Honeymoon 20

I: Intimacy Redefined 24

J: Judgmental 26

K: Kubler-Ross Grief Cycle 29

L: Losses 33

M: Mrs. 35

N: Not in Control 37

O: Openness to Treatment 39

P: Provoked Pain 43

Q: Quitting Treatment 45

R: Ruminating, Intrusive Thoughts 48

S: Secret Pain 50

T: Type-A Personality 54

U: Urinary Incontinence 57

V: Vaginismus, Part II.(Written by Phil) 59

W: Wine 61

X: XOXO 64

Y: Yearning 66

Z: Zachariah 68